This story is about a woman who wanted to succeed for her talents, not her connections. Novelist Charles Dickens was close friends with the Procter family. The father of the Procter family, Brian, was a lawyer by day and a poet by night. Their home became a haven for London’s literary set, and the Procter children were steeped in the writing scene. Years later, in 1854, Charles Dickens visited the Procter home one evening and couldn’t stop raving about an obscure poet, Mary Berwick, whose extraordinary compositions he had been publishing in his literary journal for two years. He longed to meet her and discover the source of her literary prowess. Little did he know he was in her company! The next night, Adelaide Procter (1825-1864) revealed to Charles that Mary Berwick was her pseudonym. Impressive! She wanted to be judged on her own merits and not “for papa’s sake.” She became Charles Dickens’ most published poet. Seventy-three of her poems appeared in his periodicals, and she was the only poet featured in his Christmas editions. Her popularity was second only to Alfred Lord Tennyson. She became active in the Catholic church in mid-career and began writing on religious subjects. Some of her readers urged her to return to lighter, whimsical verses, but she would have none of it. Adelaide took up the plight of working women and homeless families. Many of her poems expressed as prayers, such as the one that follows here, became popular hymns in nineteenth century England:
Adelaide Procter
I do not ask, O Lord, that life may be A pleasant road;
I do not ask that Thou wouldst take from me
Aught of its load.
For one thing only, Lord, dear Lord, I plead:
Lead me aright,
Tho’ strength should falter and though heart should bleed,
Through peace to light.
I do not ask my cross to understand,
My way to see;
Better in darkness just to feel Thy hand,
And follow Thee.
Joy is like restless day, but peace divine
Like quiet night;
Lead me, O Lord, till perfect day shall shine,
Through peace to light.
Adelaide Procter, “I Do Not Ask, O Lord,” Hymnary.org.
Rev. Dr. Peter James served 42 years as the senior of Vienna Presbyterian Church in Vienna, VA — 21 years in the 20th century and 21 years in the 21st century. He retired in 2021 and now serves as Pastor-in-Residence at Gordon-Conwell Theological Seminary.
Even as a pastor, prayer came slowly to Pete. Read Pete’s story.