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Feb 10, 2024

Puritan Prayer

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If God knows what we have done wrong, why must we confess our sins? Consider what novelist Frederick Buechner writes on the subject, “To confess your sins to God is not to tell God anything God doesn’t know. Until you confess them, however, they are the abyss between you. When you confess them, they become the Golden Gate Bridge.” Confession has the power to heal our breach with God yet are factors at work in us that recoil at the very thought of confession. It assaults our pride and pokes a gaping hole in our invincibility. Let’s set the record straight: we confess for our sake, not on God’s behalf. Confession brings to our awareness our need for mercy.

The Puritans (I’ve written elsewhere about how unfairly they are maligned in common American culture) were big into confession. They knew the power of confession to draw us back into union with God. In yesterday’s prayer, I wrote about the recuperative powers that accompany a broken heart. Today’s prayer moves from naming our wild hearts to asking God to fill our broken hearts. Somehow, I don’t associate Puritans with being wild-hearted, but that’s hardly the point. Confession is good for the soul. There’s an old Jewish tale about a student who asks the rabbi, “Why does the Torah say we lay these words upon our hearts? Why doesn’t it say we lay these words in our hearts?” The rabbi answered, “Because God knows that our hearts are closed, so we lay these words upon the heart. When our hearts break, the words fall in.” God’s Word falls like good seed into fertile soil when our hearts are broken.

Today’s prayer of confession is included in a collection of Puritan prayers:

O Lord,
I have a wild heart
and cannot stand before thee;
I am like a bird before a man.
How little I love thy truth and ways!
I neglect prayer,
by thinking I have prayed enough and earnestly,
by knowing thou hast saved my soul.
Of all hypocrites,
grant that I may not be an evangelical hypocrite,
who sins more safely because grace abounds,
who tells his lusts that Christ’s blood cleanses them,
who reasons that God cannot cast him into hell, for he is saved,
who loves evangelical preaching, churches, Christians, but lives unholily.
My mind is a bucket without a bottom,
with no spiritual understanding,
no desire for the Lord’s Day,
ever learning but never reaching the truth,
always at the gospel well but never holding water,
My conscience is without conviction or contrition,
with nothing to repent of,
My will is without power of decision or resolution.
My heart is without affection, and full of leaks.
My memory has no retention,
so I forget easily the lessons learned,
and thy truths seep away.
Give me a broken heart that yet carries home the water of grace.

Arthur Bennett, A Valley of Vision: A Collection of Prayers and Devotions.

Rev. Dr. Peter James served 42 years as the senior of Vienna Presbyterian Church in Vienna, VA — 21 years in the 20th century and 21 years in the 21st century. He retired in 2021 and now serves as Pastor-in-Residence at Gordon-Conwell Theological Seminary.

Even as a pastor, prayer came slowly to Pete. Read Pete’s story.